The Dream

All of a sudden you find yourself contemplating what is going on.

You have a good thing going and all of a sudden you start having doubts about it, you get ideas and not the ones with the good ending. On one level you don’t want anything changed but then an increasingly bigger part of you wants the thing to cease to exist.

I don’t know if this is true for all the subjects or it’s just me but I do feel there is something more to the world than it meets the eye. There used to be a time when all you could want was to make things the way they are right now but now that the thing are in place you begin to wonder.

Was this what you wanted? Has the dream been altered en-route subtly that you have been caught off guard? Were the changes so subtle that you didn’t notice them while you were working toward the dream but now that you thing you have achieved it the bigger picture looks nothing like the dream?

These are just some of the questions that I could think of, maybe there are more questions and possibly even more answers than I can possible begin to fathom.

But what do I know! My friends say I lag socially by almost 2-3 years and maybe that’s true, but to think of it...

Too much!

When is it right to consider the news items you get in RSS feeds too much?

What do you think is the right frequency to check those feeds?

When is it a right time to get off the bandwagon and join the real life?

How much of the general discussion that goes-on on Slashdot or techmeme is relevant anyway?

Well there is no straightforward answer to that. It’s more than what it should be when any of the following happens.

• You dread opening the reader of your choice if you have been away from the aforementioned reader for more than a day.
  • Reason: you basically are afraid of the huge amount of unread item count that you are afraid that you are gonna miss out on some important nugget of information that you want going through all the junk that’s posted there.
• You repeatedly recheck for any new feed content every five minutes and there is none.
  • You should stop doing that. Simple. Stop it.
• Whenever you feel a disconnect between the facts that you know and the fact other people are talking about is probably a good time to get to the real world.
  • And by other people I mean normal folk who do not work in computer related business.

One thing that you have been looking for!

If someone asks you what’s the one thing that has greatest influence on your life? Would the answer be Parents or some teacher who had a big influence or some friend who you always look up to or something you always wanted to find but were just unable until you found it?

If I have learned anything about the way life behaves it would have to be this. The one thing would be the very thing whose existence you have been denying your entire life because it made you feel that you might lose control over yourself in case you found it. You do not actively search for it because deep down you believe that it’s too good to be true. It’s the one thing that always has a higher priority, however small the margin may be.

For some people it’s a teacher or their parents or some friend or some colleague but for some people it’s completely different.

I’m not going to delve on what it is/has been/will be for me but just think about it and maybe it makes sense.